I'm so tired of so-called christians! Or Trump's America

At church today, many of the prayer requests were from people who are afraid they'll be kicked out of their HOMES. There was one from a woman who happens to be out of the country who now cannot come back HOME to the US, because of these policies. Not an anecdote. A real, live person... who just happens to be a Christian.

I'm not sure how many people you work, live, go to church with, etc. who are either immigrants and/or from middle eastern countries. But this is not simply a measure that keeps "us" safe. There is no "us" anymore. We are all God's creatures and many are His Children.

Imagine if your children who have just gone off to college could not continue their education because of this. Can you even imagine how many people won't be able to return to university because of this? Many immigrants have shitty jobs (that you DON'T want) and send their crap pay home to take care of their families. I've worked with men who were engineers in their countries, and are busboys HERE. But they do it. These are not jobs that nobody else wants.

It's very easy to state these new decrees "objectively" when they don't affect anyone in your inner or outer circles.

I live in NYC. I moved here in February of 2001. I have lived through a major terrorist attack. I have worked very closely with Muslims. I live in a neighborhood with mostly Chinese, Latino, and Bengali people. Just like you, they work hard for their families. They love their families and they love America. Because I live HERE and lived through 9/11 in NYC, I know the difference between rhetoric and reality. "There is no fear in Love!" And there's not much to fear, by way of terrorists. I more afraid of some white kook going into a church and blowing my brains out, or a crazy racist cop, than I am of an Islamic terrorist. And that it the honest to God truth! And yet, I'm still NOT afraid, because I know Who I belong to!

Someone used an analogy of a father protecting his Children by locking the door, but I'd like to remind you of our Heavenly Father who holds all of us in His hands.

I find it very difficult to believe that He is pleased with legislation that pushes some people away for the good of a different group of people. "He is not a respecter of persons."

If you'll recall, Jesus would have been killed as a baby, if His parents hadn't had become refugees in Egypt. One of Jesus' first evangelists was the Samaritan woman. Jews hated Samaritans, and she was an outcast among her own people, but THROUGH LOVE, Jesus changed her life and she told everyone in her town and they all believed.

Jesus didn't do the "prudent" thing. He didn't worry about what was best for He and His disciples. He LOVED his neighbor! That loose woman at the well!

I want Christians to start treating EVERYONE the way that Christ taught us to. "Love your neighbor as yourself." Jesus did NOT say, "love the neighbor (that you've approved to live in your gated community) as yourself!"

When will Christians stop exalting their own desire for safety and self-preservation over God's Word?

"The GREATEST OF THESE IS LOVE!" When we put our trust in walls, and rhetoric, we can keep telling ourselves that we are praying for God's Will, but what we are erecting are IDOLS. "My job. My insurance premiums. My country." We even try to fit God into our unGodly boxes. But Jesus PLAINLY told us to lay down our lives. ALL OF THIS STUFF is to be given to God. He is the God of Abundance. There is no shortage of Provision, Safety, or Protection, when we give everything to Him.

Please tell me how self-preservation, "America first", this 'let me take care of mine' attitude, lines up with God's Word? Even Jesus put others before His own mother and brothers. But we call ourselves a Christian nation, with this self serving attitude? We have been a nation that has brazenly taken God's name in vain, and place our desires and our 'rights' above His Word.

Who do we trust? Trump? The Obama administration? Grass roots movements?

If I KNOW who I am, in Christ, I DO NOT CONCERN MYSELF with "what tomorrow brings." I do not make decisions based on fear! I do not vote against other people's free will and safety, and rights.

We are saved by Grace, not by nationality or political party. Not by personality. Not by our life choices, or how long we've been going to church. Salvation is a SUPERNATURAL ACT of God. Only by Holy Spirit do I have a REVELATION of who Christ is. And ONLY THROUGH LOVE, is my heart turned to God.

"His kindness brings us to repentance." Ergo, I am kind and LOVE as many people as possible. (From the homeless, to the drinks, to the creeps... I don't know who God wants me to love on.)  And sometimes it's awkward and uncomfortable, and sometimes just plain, "Eeeyuuww!", but WE ARE CALLED TO LOVE, so who cares how it feels, or what it costs?! I don't know whose soul it is that God is using me to plant His Seeds of Love in. So I (try to) love everyone.  All kinds!


If a person who is turned away from or put out of America, either misses out on a Love encounter with God, or internalizes their disappointment and never accepts Jesus as their savior, I am much more concerned with THAT, than I am my own safety and financial well being.

I believe that we ALL will stand before God on the day of Judgement, and give an account of the souls that have been eternally lost, either because of our actions, or our inactions.

So, NO! My Heavenly Father doesn't lock the door against other peoples because He loves each one of us, that He sent Christ to die for EACH OF US.

Fear is NEVER from God. EVER!!

The case of public opinion versus Nancy Grahn's Twitter post about Viola Davis


In this day of Facebook/Twitter ranting, policing and crucifixion, do you think that we're better or worse as a people than we were in the past?

Did we always have these sorts of thoughts?  Or is it the seemingly disconnected nature of social media that makes us say cruel things about other people?

On the same note, are we better as a whole or worse?  It's very easy for people to like, dislike, and comment on people that we consider to be at fault.  But aren't we worse than a single person who says a stupid thing, when we unilaterally decide that this person should lose their jobs because we don't like what they say or do?

Elected officials are one thing, but random folks (even actors or radio show hosts) shouldn't be fired for speaking their opinions. I don't like what this woman said.  I don't like what Kim Davis is doing.  I don't like what people like Rush Limbaugh say.  I don't like what some comedians say. But why should my opinion dictate whether or not that person can make a living?!  I have some VERY STRONG opinions myself.  I find it frightening to think that a stupid thing that I say or post in a moment can ruin my entire life.  We have to draw the line somewhere because eventually we will ALL find ourselves on the wrong side of public opinion.

Racism and Spiritual Warfare

THIS POST IS FOR CHRISTIANS ONLY--- (specifically the White one's in Indiana with whom I attended Heritage Christian School)

I am convinced that if EVERY person who claimed to be a Christian in America was actively praying and doing spiritual warfare, and actively seeking the Reconciliation (between God and each other) that Jesus died for us to have, that racism could not survive in America.
But too many people either aren't really Christians OR they're only Christians for their own personal benefit.  I am saddened that so many people who "preach and pray" on their Facebook pages have absolutely nothing to say or pray when it comes to their Brothers and Sisters in Christ being murdered because of their race.  They have nothing to "pray or say" to uplift their communities and friends when there is violence and heartache between law-enforcement and innocent people.  You'd think that the actions that have taken place in this country were plots on TV shows that they've never heard of. 

We are meant to stand in the gap for one another.  The psalmist said, "Blessed are the Peacemakers."  The Bible also says, "Seek Peace, and pursue it."  You cannot make Peace by ignoring a problem.  You also cannot fight "principalities and powers" if you don't acknowledge them for what they are.  This is not about the color of one's "flesh and blood."  This is about an old American idol, exalting itself.  If you buy into Americans vs them, then YOU are the idolater.  If you think that Black men are inherently dangerous, then it is YOU who has placed them upon an alter to be sacrificed to a false god.

The victims of the #CharlestonShooting are members of YOUR churches.  The innocent young men who are being killed by bad police officers are your sons.  A house divided cannot stand!  If you think that these things don't affect you, you are exalting another false god.  What matters to the One True Living God, should also be your heart's cry. 

I went to Heritage Christian School and was a happy little girl, even though I dealt with some racism when I was fairly young.  That was a thousand years ago!  Why are there still so many of you who seem not to care about people who don't seem like you?

If Jesus loves someone and died specifically for a person, who are YOU not to care??


Robyn Payne

Robyn Payne is an Actor, Singer, and Producer working and residing in New York City. Interested in Jesus, Music, Loving People, Running, and Anything that Makes Me Laugh

She called me a "fucking nigger!"

I've been running around the Reservoir in Central Park regularly for the last few weeks.  I like it when I see the same people every day, and call them my "friends" which really makes no sense, but I like it.

Today I made two new friends.  One woman passed me and said "Congratulations!"  I turned around because I had my headphones on.  There was a guy behind me, and I verified that she, indeed, congratulated me on... something.


I also sit, for a while, at a certain place.  (A new habit, I'm not sure I'm crazy about, because, I've begun to stop running every time I come to this place.)  As I was sitting there, a woman who, earlier in my run, it seemed had 'spit' in my direction and gave me a dirty look, passed me again. This time, she called me a 'fucking nigger!" and flicked me off.   All I could say was "God bless you," because it was clear that she was possessed.   I use that word because when she first passed me, I got a vibe off of her.  I'm pretty good at discerning what these vibes mean.  Also, WHO in their right mind would call a stranger (who has the capacity to clothes-line them) a "fucking nigger" in the middle of the day in NYC?

It's funny.  While this has been on my mind, I wasn't hurt by what she said.  I am actually sad for her.  Anyone who has so much rage that they spew hatred at total strangers is someone who is tormented.  She wasn't your run-of-the-mill homeless looking 'Crazy" either.  She was actually attractive (with the exception of the hatred that lives on her.)  She had long, dark hair, was slim, and dark.  She looked to be Latina and/or Asian (ironic.)

This is the second time that I can recall being called a nigger.  The first was when I was walking down the street in college.  Someone from a car yelled it out.  I had to turn around and see who they were talking to.  It was me.  I remember finding it humorous.  

That word has never hurt me (personally.)  I know who I am.  But I understand the implications and ramifications of what it means, universally.  I'm more concerned with the people who would never say it to my face.  Those are the ones who could really hurt you.  (Those and the crazy cops.)

I was really proud of myself for how I reacted to her spitting at me and calling me names.  Then I asked myself if I'd have been so gracious had she called me, 'old', or 'fat', or said "no one will ever want to be with you," or "it's too late for you, give it up!"  I realize that I may not have been able to brush those things off so easily.  It's not the words that others use against us that hurt, but what we believe about ourselves that falls into agreement with those insults.

It is a strange time that we're living in.  This post-Obama nation has shown that it has not, nor does it truly wish to move beyond the hatred upon which it was founded.  I have gone out of my way to avoid reading or seeing too much about what happened in Ferguson, or on Staten Island.  I really don't know what good my emotional involvement would do for the cause.

I believe that  prayer is powerful, and that is how I will choose to serve these causes. (And for my non-praying friends who think I'm living in lala-land, marching isn't helping, nor is complaining on-air or on Facebook.)

One thing is for certain, had I not been in 'a state of prayer', when I was in the park, I would have been very upset about that woman.  I may have even reacted differently in the moment, and who knows what could have happened then.  I was able to recognize the "thing" that was "on" this woman WAY before she called me any names, and for that I am grateful.

I am also grateful for the congratulations I received.  For what?  Any number of things, I suppose.

Easy 1st Blog Entry


I'm writing this from my bed on my iPhone with the Squarespace Blog app.  I haven't even finished the 2 week trial period and I am VERY happy with my experience building my new website with Squarespace.  Their customer service is outstanding and the platform is fairly intuitive.  As long as you choose the right template, you should be able to accomplish your goals.  

I started with one and wasn't pleased, then did some research on the best Squarespace templates for actors.  The second template I chose was perfect.  And any issues I had, customer service answered my emails, with directions and sometimes videos, on how to help.  The responses would come between 10 minutes and an hour, depending on the time of day.

I've no doubt that I will be able to update this website on the regular. 

Take THAT Wordpress!